The Mid-20s Crisis

Sandstorms are galore in Riyadh these days. A single day brings heat, rain, hailstorms, cool winds and the sandstorms. Weird weather conditions of late in the desert. Welcome to global warming! Elsewhere in the world, the ice caps/ice bergs/ice somethings are melting away. That results in a week that rivals the monsoon weather of Bangalore! Rain almost everyday, the citizens of Riyadh had a wonderful time. Until of course the sun started showing everyone who the real boss is around here.

Volcanic eruptions are taking place not only in Iceland, but in my head too! Letting off steam through a blog helps. It's been a while since I wrote on my blog. I was occupied with things happening around. I love blogging but often I sit and wonder what to write about. Writing is easy. Thinking is not! Or maybe it is the vice-versa. I don't know. I mean I started writing this hours ago and still the progress made is 2 paragraphs only. There are times when everyone suffers from the brain being on snooze mode. Mine is on sleep mode.

This month was very interesting in lot of ways. Realization, acceptance, frustration and all the adjectives that could describe a mix bag of things that happen to a person. I'm in the mid-twenties crisis (if something like this ever exists!) I guess. The pressures and responsibilities are starting to weigh. Need for delivering is the priority now. I'm being so vague right now that I'm starting to make no sense to myself! A confused soul trapped in expectations of oneself..

There are also times when we wonder what is it that we're after in life? Doing things perfectly the way you're supposed to and all that. Is this it? Pretty mechanical but that's the norm whether we like it or not. Seldom does one do what he/she wants to really do. Its not just about the perfect job, education and everything else that everybody does always. What about the dreams that one envisions of? How quickly our lofty goals and aims in life change to mere modified plans that serves the purpose. I'm yet to find out what I want. And when I do, then what? Will I pursue it? 10 years down the line I'll know my answer.. I hope I don't look back with a regret but rather with a sense of accomplishment. More importantly, a sense of satisfaction. But is it that easy? Time alone will tell..

Mistakes and bad judgement is part of life. I had my share of mistakes too. Correcting them is important. Repeating them is stupidity. To err is human. But to err again is monkey! A zoo example, but you get the picture.

But in the end, life is all about taking chances and believing in something irrespective of what people think.. It's also about being content and happy with what you have. There is a fine difference between the two. Go figure.. I shall do the same.. Cheers.